Trip (boring, with bad spelling but eh)

This is probably gonna be boring but eh here is my trip notes

Trip
I should add before you read that the time is in Australian but the date is what it is where I am
For example
I say it's 5:17 on the 6 of oct, it means it's actually 8:16 on the 6th here



Before we leave

I leave in a few hours
I don't know what I'm gonna do
I feel so lost so alone
This is gonna be a horrible month
With so may consequences 
I'm worried for all of my friends in need, so I hope this sorrta helps when in distanced 

Do not be afraid of what you feel
Find a way to imprace it, when you feel down,draw
When your angry run
When you are embarrassed laugh
And when you are scared be brave

This month will go quickly and I'll be back for you soon
I will return
I'm not leaving you
This space will make us strong
I will miss you but please don't miss me
Enjoy your time without me
With out my nagging so you'll tell me what's not

Just try to live as much as possible, for the both of us
Be selfless
Ask for help
Enjoy life
And dream

I love you :D
To my dear friends
James







3 oct

It's the third.of October at 12:05AM and to be honest I had the most amazing day all my mates came into civic and we, sam w, stephen, brooke, lish, calum,jacquie and erin all just chilled, we went to glebe and played grid iron and catch and frisby, me and Brooke ripped up the hacky sack was awesome, but now I'm in Sydney on the toilet and  I don't know how I feel just yet,
I know lishy cried when I left and so did Erin,
 I love them





8:47pm oct the 3

First plane trip
I don't actually know where I am, I know I'm in the air somewhere I can see sea not land so we arnt flying over australia, my feet hurt and I'm gonna kill someone soon I I don't get a smoke GGGGRRRrRRrR

I'm on the flight to Amsterdam and it is 5:11 am
It is shit, this is the longer flight and I'm all dirty and ewwy   Because Singapore was insanely hot and going for a smoke was almost unbearable,I have also realized that sleep is impossible I'm to stressed and worried and I miss every one back home, whyd we have to do this numb nut trip 

1:26 am

We r standing in the middle of the Dom tower my legs hurt so much,we are almost half way, we r in the bell area, it is over 400 steps and bigger then 100 meters tall, stupid parents, I'm missing everyone a lot

Up another lot of stairs and I will admit the view is awesome :D


Lol we got lost in a tower hahaha ababa aha
It turns out that the chick in the lead forgot to check all the doors so we stood there for 10mins waiting for the guide to come down to unlock the door when she lent on a door and it opened, lol we all were so happy to get out.

7:49
Just had an amazing walk with benta took some horrible photos but it was awesome to talk to her, we spoke of relationships, how she wanted to be a teacher and I taught her some English was alot of fun, 
Thanks benta
Now I'm chillin in bed and it's extremely hot, I thought it would be cold but no they make it hot,
I'm still really missing Australia but the more I'm here the more awesome things I seem to find, but as of now I'm gonna go and work on Lucy part 6


It's 12:18 am on the 5th 
And I'm at this weird information center, 
The forest was awesome but learning about it and the houses and the art gallery were shit, I got some awesome photos I will admit and a few people actually smiled at me today first time since I got here, I miss Australia so much, I just don't feel right here

5:14 am 6 of oct
Today we met Peter,Lillian and Thom 
All were really nice and Thom was the first metal child have seen here since I got here, we went to some village that is protected or inside a star shaped fortress, I forgot the name, it was a bit boring but we got to see some awesome people, :D

7:11 on the 6th of October
My parents were talking about how my mum had difficult giving birth to my sister and I almost burst into tears, all the mistakes I have made. I can't get away from the shity things I have done it life, I'm on the other side of the world and still can't escape the tragedy of my fuck ups.

7:11pm on the 10th
I have been so busy so it'll just be a quick recap of the past 3 days

Me and bente went into Amsterdam and it was amazing we trained in and I didn't shack and the cops were so nice and it was awesome to go shopping, then we came home and just chilled
The next day we just relaxed people left except me and bente we chilled and waited for that night when everyone came over
Met so many people

Yesterday me bente and her sister Melska went into rottadam and we walked around the shopped,
So Many Shoes!!!!!!

Now I'm sitting here at the table waiting for another hour before we go, we leave holland and go into Italy
I'm gonna miss everyone
And last night was probably the last time I'll ever see bente :(


2:01
10th
We just got into Rome and it is amazing
So much sun and culture as soon as u step outside
I just wanna go and swim or run
It's insanely sunny!!!!!!

6:10 tenth of oct
I realize what I said above was nothing but a lie as soon as we got to the hotel everything went to shit, we are fighting and all this shit, i had to restrain my self from punching the fun called rudi in the face, fuck this is a shit trip

8:30am i don't know the date
IF U HAVNT READ HUNGER GAMES THEN DON'T READ THIS IT IS ABIT OF A SPOILER

so I just read the bit around page 280 were

Rue dies and Katniss sings to her, and I'm almost crying 
I dont know why but it's so upsetting I loved rue and now she isn't there and it's all sad, I hate books that get to me

Here is rues lullaby 

Deep in the meadow, under the willow
A bed of grass, a soft green pillow
Lay down your head, and close your sleepy eyes
And when again they open,the sun will rise.
Here it's safe, here it's warm
Here the daisies guard you from every harm
Here your dreams are sweet and tomorrow brings them true
Here is the place where I love you.
Deep in the meadow, hidden far away
A cloak of leaves, a moonbeam ray
Forget your woes and let your troubles lay
And when again it's morning, they'll wash away.
Here it's safe, here it's warm
Here the daisies guard you from every harm
Here your dreams are sweet And tomorrow brings them true
Here is the place where I love you.

So sad :(


Fuck it's 3:26
And I just woke ip after only have 2 hours of sleep
This hotel is fucked I'm not on a bed I'm not a fucking couch 
I'm sorry but this trip has failed
I miss holland
And o miss Australia
And all my mates


3:54 
It's lik 7 here in Rome and today wasn't as bad as yesterday,
We went and saw the final judgement Which was pretty cool
I'm sitting here and all I wanna do is go back to Amsterdam I really did love it there, plus Rome is a hole
I wouldn't come back anytime soon
I do think Rome is beautiful at night but the beauty doesn't work anymore with all the fighting that has happened when we got here

4:06 on the 12th
Just gott into Florence and its nice the hotel we r in is good
But I still don't wanna. Be here
I miss everything and feel like shit 24/7

It's 5:35 on the 12th
We are in this nice restaurant and then all this load people come in, drinking yelling being dicks, 
Don't want to be racist but most are asian tourists
I have to strain my self for going of and the biggest drunk guys coz he is pissing the shit out of me

I'm not feeling to talkative I'm extremely tired so I'm just gonna say that Today we saw the giant David  in Florence

5:45 13th
We went to the same place for dinner to night and it is amazing if your ever in Florence you should come here and order the roasted pork leg with roast potatoes in the oven and then for dessert get the tiramassu (wrong spelling
It's called Trattoria Da Tito

Anyway I'm so stuffed with food I think my belly is gonna explode
I feel really over weight, I don't like being big
I just feel that being I'll would be better then being this bloated 

10:14pm 14th
We just went to a leather shop for my dad
I don't like he is buying leather coz that's my thing
But the girl there and the shop was amazing it was called

Leather factory
NDS
And look for the girl named Vera
And offer her a smoke and she will become a really nice person :D
Anyway we are now sitting eating lunch at the same place as yesterday 
It's called florens 
Not a bad pizza

Eww (I no I have already posted this) 14oct

I feel so sick
This insane pain in my stomach and gut
It's as if I have don't a train of shots containing acid
I can't taste blood in my mouth but I don't know if that's from all the dry swallowing or that I'm biting my tongue so hard
Someone just cut it out! 

7:03am
We just had dinner at the same place
I had lamb rips in fried sesame seads
And it's amazing
And now I'm gonna have one of my favorite things to eat
tiramassu!!!
Incase u can't be bothered scrolling up it's called
Trattoria da Tito
You must come here if your in Florence 
It is to die for
We have been here three nights. In a row and now it's as if we are family :D I love it I would happy work in this one restaurant   
There offering every one shots of this strange orange liquor and it's so insane having a lot of fun, with Maggie 
Lol just did shots with me mum dad and Maggie our waitress and she is totally gone, oh and did I say the bottle is 30 percent 
So funny and weird to be doing shots with the family
Lol and the chef just did two shots bahahahHba

6:25 on the 15th I think
We just landed in holland and I love it here
I am a bit upset that we are not gonna see bente but eh
And me and dad had a huge fight I actually hate him so much

6:24 16th I think
We are at the Amsterdam airport about to get onto our flight. This is the last time I will be in holland for a long time and I know I'm gonna miss it :(

9:09 17th

Just billing in bath yeah as in where Charlie is so cool like lives :D to bad I leave in an hour or two and haunt seen him,but oh well
I hunk I'm gonna start my own music thingo
Just with the acoustic guitar and bass and maybe a tambourine 
Like never shout never
Or if I can get the lyrics awesome
Jonny cash
And I shall name it
First drag
Coz that first drag from a smoke in the morning is so amazing
But yeah
Bath is sexy
But pretty boring unless you can drink
Which I can't

1:07 17th 
I'm in some hick fucking town
This place is shit, there is nothing but fucking fields and sone shitty stone circle, not the hedge just a circle and a town, I fucking hate the people I'm with, they keep waisting my fucking time,I hate them 


Spry I haven't said much but ATM it is
7:05 on the 21st
Anyway we are in Scotland, Pitlochry 
And we have already spent two days in Edinburgh
We picked up my lovely sister for devon in the UK and I think my dad cried a bit lol
Anyway we just got back from an amazing light show here
And it was awesome
I loved taking photos of all the trees lit up different colors
Ill give more tomorrow ATM I wanna sleep


4:00 22nd
So I'm at a
Wait for it

Haunted castle in invenese

We r staying the night and I'm so fucking pumped
My muscles tense at very door
Im touching every wall
I can't wait
As a big believer in the after life it's gonna be awesome to use my tarot cards here :D
I love it here awesome night it will be

10:21 23rd
The castle was bad ass but I just slipped over and another castle and ate shot hard, my only black skinnys that are not ripped and now covered in mud
Fuck 

6:51 24th
So sick of not sleeping
And not being back home
And not being with my mates
This holiday is nothing but shit

I don't even know the time or date
I'm so done
I hate being away from Australia
It's time to go home!!



11:40
In Singapore it's really hot here but it's good to be going home
I miss Australia so much can't wait to lie down in my own bed and watch tv and smoke on the deck and hug all my mates 
I love Australia 

Update

I'm so sick of all of this
I'm sick of being alone
I'm sick of not having some one to hold when I sleep
I want to be able to hug her and she rests on my shoulder
I want to be able to stare into her eyes for hours with out saying anything
I want someone to love
I want someone to love me
I want a beautiful girl who will tell me everything and alow me to help her

I feel so sick
This insane pain in my stomach and gut
It's as if I have don't a train of shots containing acid
I can't taste blood in my mouth but I don't know if that's from all the dry swallowing or that I'm biting my tongue so hard
Someone just cut it out! 
I don't know why but it's horrible
The cold air was good but now it does nothing but hurt

I wish it wasn't like this

I don't know if I can do it
I'm so sore
So beaten
So broken

But I must push on,
I promised I would
It's just so hard
I feel all this pain
I wanna get rid of it
I wanna brake this skin and bleed
Bleed the numbness away
But I can't
Instead I have this one song stuck in my head
I ache
I burn for it to leave coz it makes me sO sad but it just won go away


Deep in the meadow, under the willow
A bed of grass, a soft green pillow
Lay down your head, and close your sleepy eyes
And when again they open,the sun will rise.
Here it's safe, here it's warm
Here the daisies guard you from every harm
Here your dreams are sweet and tomorrow brings them true
Here is the place where I love you.
Deep in the meadow, hidden far away
A cloak of leaves, a moonbeam ray
Forget your woes and let your troubles lay
And when again it's morning, they'll wash away.
Here it's safe, here it's warm
Here the daisies guard you from every harm
Here your dreams are sweet And tomorrow brings them true
Here is the place where I love you.

grr

i just raged on facebook
and im really sorry if it offendeds anyone usually religion doesnt bother me
but i was just so angry and yeah

religian (soz about spelling) is fake, they all speak of love nad hope yet they dont except sinners, people who love they same sex, most religions are a waste of time and space, they seep there way into the lives of the hopeless promising n...othing but lies and false hope, speaking of a better life after death or that they will be forgoten for there mistakes in the past, The only thing we can truely believe in is ourselevs and our own actions

 

anyway

atm im about an hour out of amsterdam in holland

it is amazing here and im extremly proud of my family over here, i met my second cousin, Bente, on the first day and we have been having a good time talking and taking photos

 

so just a quick little up date

im working on lucy part 6-7 and its gettin good

so have a good nice

dont for get to wear pants :D

I'm off

I leave in a few hours
I don't know what I'm gonna do
I feel so lost so alone
This is gonna be a horrible month
With so may consequences 
I'm worried for all of my friends in need, so I hope this sorrta helps when in distanced 

Do not be afraid of what you feel
Find a way to imprace it, when you feel down,draw
When your angry run
When you are embarrassed laugh
And when you are scared be brave

This month will go quickly and I'll be back for you soon
I will return
I'm not leaving you
This space will make us strong
I will miss you but please don't miss me
Enjoy your time without me
With out my nagging so you'll tell me what's not

Just try to live as much as possible, for the both of us
Be selfless
Ask for help
Enjoy life
And dream

I'm gonna try to post again but if not

I love you :D
To my dear friends
James