I don't know if I can help,
So much is on my shoulders
So much and I'm scared I'm gonna crack
If I crack other fall
Im the support
Nothing more
Just a support peice
Im scared I can't help
Im scared
I'm so fucking worried
I just need to know what to do
I need someone to help me so I can help others
Please take my advice
Do as I say
It's not your fault

Ps this is a bit of a strange night, sorry for the random posts

love hurts

under the night sky
its so easy out there.
 simple
no regrets
no pain
just relief
a place to relax
to get away from it all
where you can scream at the sky
let go of our anchors
no need to cut or bleed
just a place to breath

The time between morning and night

We all make mistakes
We all carry around our black bags
We must fight
We must not give up
With every scare comes another story
We all have our scare story boards but leave it there
Add more scares do not end it all
We are all broken so be careful with what we say
We need to keep pushing on
Ending it is solution forever but for temporary problems
Death may be a gift but it's the time it takes it to get there which is the best
Keep pushing
Don't give up
Don't forget
And never regret
The sun will rise again, another day will always be better, long for the night, keep breathing
Don't let the others win

to write love on her arm

i want to write love on her arm
i want to draw on her hands
i want to play with her fingers as we walk
i just want a good relationship
i miss the love
i miss the time we would spent together
i miss lying in the sun
i miss the feeling of smiles when i see you

its time for you to leave my head and become real and join my heart

if your out there
come and find home
...

BAND read if u have a spare minute

That is it I'm being proactive from now on
If you have any musical talent and live in the ACT area contact me now!!!!!!

I'm thinking the name will be

SCARS OF DETICATION

I want it to be hard and brutal
I am happy to play bass or do harsh vocals
Anything
I need to get on stage and do somthing with my life ASAP
And I'm feeling that it has to be something on stage
So please try to contact me, even if u have a band and need a new bassist or u wanna start a hole new band just, Idn I need this now!!!!!

Please

I need the heart break
I need something to get rid of this numbness and disappointment 

I need the love I don't know how much longer I can go with out her, I don't know who she is but she is out there, please I'm begging you come and find me, I need you I want to love you, I want to share our issues, share our failures, share our gouls.

I need it please
Now more then ever
I don't know how long I can keep pushing on without you.

I can't fight it any more
I long for you
Please come and take the pain away

I beg of you

Im so worried, so scared
Why have I done these foolish things
I cant believe I said yes
Yes to that sin
Yes the the death
I should of stood up for you when you couldn't

I no that it was her choice I couldn't of done anything
But I wish that we were ok and not to destroyed and alone
I havnt seen her in weeks, no months
Why does it have to be this way

I know I know but do you know I know you know I know that I want you to know

This probably won't make sence to alot of you as it is a reply to my friend

I know that you know that we will always be here for you
We will always smile no matter what is going on
We will always love you
We will always be there for you
We will always be there to rebuild you
So take Down your guard or give us a key
So we can help you

Don't be afraid of loosing us, no matter how far we will help
Don't be afraid of not feeling happiness when we leave, there will be others like us.


We will always love you :D

I don't know

The addiction is coming back,
I dont know how long I can hold off before I rip into my arm
So much adrenalin, such a relief
But I know it will fuck everything up,
I thought I was doing ok, I build this stupid dream
A dream that all of this shot was over
But it was a lie nothing but a veil that covered my eyes

I don't know how much longer I can go without making more scars

P.s check out my short stories Lucy is going awesomely :D

Battle

I'm just so swore
I'm so tired

Tired of this fight
Swore after the battle
But I'm no where near the end of the war

I can't surrender
I should surrender
All this pain and suffering for what
So we can continue with our crummy lives
The only thing holding me is all my mates
Please don't leave
I wont be Able to fight anymore

I'm just so swore

Lucy part 1

* ring ring*
" hello
.....
Oh, I see. How did it happen?
.....
I'll tell her straight away, sorry for you loss
Beep beep"

Lucy's mum ran up the stairs but it was to late
Lucy already knew that her best friend had died, he'd been on the phone to her as he bleed out on his kitchen floor.
Thoughts of regret and sorrow pushed and pulled in lucy's delicate mind. Thoughts of memories and love, thoughts of how they had been friends since they were kids, how she use to play at his house just down the road, playing catch and hide n go seek, such innocent times but now just as they were coming together she found her self lost.

Her mum burst through her door, seeing her daughter curled up on the ground at the feet of her bed, holding the photo of him, once so clean now covered in blood and tears.

Family members really know how to make you feel good

So my Oma (Dutch for grandma) came down this weekend and decided to tell me I have depression
I realize that if you read these that you probably feel the same

So I've been talking to my mates and they agree
And now I feel that maybe I do have depression
But I can't have it
It will ruin everything
I feel fine except when I'm alone
That's when shit goes down

I've been feeling happier but everyone is suddenly asking if I'm ok
Or what's wrong
I don't understand
Do I have a sign tapped to my back????

P.s I'm posting another story soon and I'll be trying to add to it every few weeks :D